Well today has been odd to say the least.
I spent a little time with my other half last night and he slept most of today (due to working nights tonight) we cuddled and hugged but mainly slept. I felt happy to be with him but little voices of doubt just keep creeping into my mind. Not doubt insecurities really. To top it off I had such a bad nightmare last night I woke up feeling so down and started crying. I won’t go into the nightmare but it was to do with my not being good enough.
As the day progressed I haven’t been feeling too bad. I am trying my hardest. Taking it a step at a time. Try to stop these voices in my head.
I know what my problem is. I think too much. I over analyse over think over exaggerate. My head could write a very fanciful novel I suspect sometimes! My main problem as mentioned before is that I do not have anything to do! I try reading, knitting even baking and still no good! Still I shall keep trying. I will beat these thoughts 🙂
As for the 30 day shred. It was a struggle I had to stop a few times today due to a pain in my side, but I soldiered on 🙂 which I am very proud of 😀
Tomorrow I am meeting some friends so I don’t know if I can get on here. I shall try and keep you all updated.
Though seeing my friends will be a great boost for me. I am my worst enemy!
That will change.Â